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my birthday is coming up...the 5th..i've been really excited for it..and I've been ordering clothes and stuff to enjoy my own birthday. But, I've been really having this odd feeling lately..

I have a bank account, and it has my mom's name on it (Her title) ..and I was going to get money out yesterday/ today to pay for my clothes that I purchased. Which I am doing today..but my mom is acting really weird. I am starting to think that she is taking money out without my knowing. Just because her title is on it. Because I told her to take out a bit more money so I would have enough to pay for it, and she replied I didn't have enough.

I really think that she's been taking money out, that is really bothering me. I've been telling her I am going to be moving, and she is freaking out. And now I think I know why. Because how will she get the extra money ? The other day she went and bought a HUGE bottle of alcohol it was like a 60 dollar bottle..Now I am starting to feel really used. It wasn't because she is going to miss me, she's going to miss my money.


My mom has never really cared about me, so why should she start now, lol. I really need to get the fuck out of here. And just forget about all of this. It's just not working out, and I really hate the idea of being used.


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But on the bright side, I've lost weight. My diet, even though it's changed a bit, is still better than it was in the past. It just took a while to change it, and I wouldn't go back to eating that junk I had been eating. :/


I can't wait to buy some more clothes , I've been needing to -.-

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So how is everything going with my dieiting?

I haven't been on LJ in soo long!

I got a new myspace/dreamtemperature


Okay okay okay so at the moment I am drinking a nice cold glass of water..

and I have lost about freaking 7-8 pounds!!!

Atleast!

I am actually really happy with the results! :D


I have been doing crunches lately...,but thats aobut it. :)

I love my diet <3 <3 <3

Other than that I have some really crazy events coming up!

I Am going to be going to texas, to see Tara ^^

And were going to celibrate an early birthday together, so that is really exciting!

Day 10!
Things are not going to badly. I am drinking water right now. I ate some meatballs earlier that my mother made~. They're good, but I can't eat too many, and I don't want to eat pizza rolls!

I fixed my hair today, and makeup. IDk what for. Hahah XD But I got kind of bored~. Hmmmmm

I might be hanging out with Meagan tomorrow. After that maybe Saturday go and see a movie.

I really want to dye my hair again, the red I had on it faded, for some reason it isn't taking to a natural color like it had with the Loreal red. Now that stuff was awesome. I should probably dye my hair that color, but it seems to suck out all the color I had in it before hand.





I've also been wanting to listen to more music, because I don't have my ipod it's kind of hard to. I usually don't feel like it. So I probably will end up going to best buy sometime this weekend, also to get that checked out. I hope that they fix ipods..because there isn't an apple store anywhere around here :/

Tora will probably be coming to stay with me for a week sometime soon. I can't wait and I really hope she gets it planned soon! I miss Tora being around :[ I feel sad, so I am ready to see her again.

I may or may not be going to the beach, so I will post an update about that subject later~ Yeah.

That's about it, right now I've just been playing around on facebook, myspace, and my guitar~. I am actually getting rather better with it.


PS

I MAY BE GETTING MY DIR EN GREY XX JAPANESE FUCKER FAMILY BOOK ANY TIME ANY DAY SOON! I can't wait! I am sooo stoked! It's a 200$ book that I got for 30$!
>3< I am so stoked!

Yes, it is day nine. :/

I drank a total of 8 glasses of water + in under a few hours.

Looking to the brighter side of things, it is getting much easier to drink that much liquid. Before I could not get through one glass without running to the bathroom 3 times! One glass! So I realized, now that I can drink more, that I have to drink it quickly. I can't let it sit in my stomach.

I had a torilla today, but I haven't been really hungry. Thats all.




The word inside my body, "FUCK"

I feel like I want to do something, I want to inspire everyone, but I can't stop feeling filthy.





FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

Hello guys! I am back again! Don don don

It's kinda, well rather late at this very moment.

But I took some pictures earlier..my nieces came by nad I hung out with them for a while. We went to walmart and I carried a sleeping one year old around. She is so cute! I love them to death, but they're exausting so I have had little energy today. :[




Hopefully with some luck I will be heading to Florida in August!  Me and my mother should be going. I will make sure to take tons of pictures. I would really love to get out of the house and maybe get an even skin ton. I hate being so tan on my arms and pale everywhere else! My stomach is even tan, but I think that is because I am indian..but I am not quite sure of it all. It doesn't make much since.

Some things I might buy~ 
I saw a photobook of Dir en grey I really really want! It has been going up in price, and someone has it listed for only 30$!!!!!!!! Thats nothing at all! Not bad at all! An average price in JApan would be probably atleast 70, or 60. 30 is certainly good right?! But I want to get my hair straightened, so it may eat up my paycheck this next month...idk You know it's worth it! I will have straight hair for Florida! YEAH! I want my hair to be nice in pictures for when I swim and get out ;3

I would like to look nice for once..and I am still dieting ~ day five of Diet diet! Ugh it's been rough! BUt going well, I am still doing my water binge, I just ate a lot of fruit today. Cherries, Blueberries, and grapes, and carrots! 

I did eat a little gross pizza thing this morning but I had nothing else to eat, so I felt kind of bad...-__-; But I haven't had any junk other than that! I only ate it because it was quick, and I almost threw up. I think I have somethnig wrong with my stomach lately -.-; Idk Maybe because I am drinking so much water. I'm not sure.

But I am sure things will get easier, and it is nice having a blog to talk about it on, it helps me keep on track :3


also we're having a garage sale..I will post up some things I want to sale. If anyone wants to buy them let me know :3 mostly JROCK AND ANIME.

YAY


PS ABOUT MY FANFIC!

I finally finished Chapter one! AND IT IS LONG!!!!!!!
It''s been a while, but it turned out better than I thought it would. I will post a link up in my journal tomorrow or so! I have to have Tora to beta it. Because I just hurry through it worrying that it will not get done~

But now it's done! And probably three more chapters to go then I can work on my other fanfic! :3